YOLO?

im not hating on yolo, or anyone who enjoys using it for that matter. the simple fact is that its actually put things in perspective for me. when most people think of yolo they usually think that we must live each day like its our last, which will look different for each person. but the gist of the saying is to live with no regrets, enjoy life, whether partying, relaxing, or whatever it may be. 

the second half of the ingredients that went into making this post is the overwhelming amount of death lately. i mean really death isnt anymore prevalent than it was yesterday or 50 years ago. but, it just seems like in the past couple weeks i have heard and known of several people who unexpectedly died. its just sad. death is so real, so permanent, so in your face, so unbiased, so gut wrenching, so alive? 

so i lay in bed and make myself miserable crying over the people in my life who arent even dead, or make myself miserable worrying about every move the one i love makes. the verse that keeps running through my mind is psalm 90:12...teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.

here's to a confession. im in need of a heart change. i need to stop living like i believe yolo. we dont only live once, we will live again. i need to be reminded and to be rebuked by my good heavenly Father. becuase sometimes, a lot of times, this life seems so important. i have a family i am more than thankful for, and a love that im absolutely crazy about. yet, i will miss the glory of god on earth if i continue to hold onto those good things high above jesus. 

open up our eyes jesus. let us see the world and blessings from an eternal perspective. this is but a moment. im tired of walking in fear of what tomorrow holds. im tired of the fear of losing someone. 

TEACH ME TO NUMBER EACH DAY. its a blessing, not by means of what i deserve. the lord gives and takes away. 

i hate to break it to you guys, but yolo has caused me grief. maybe i just cant handle it. maybe i need to remember and first and true Love. maybe this world has swayed my heart. we dont only live once. we will live again. Lord, help us not to fear the days that you have made. you alone are good and glorious. our circumstances do not change that about you.